We grow and so do our expectations

From time to time I observe myself and my current material and intellectual state. I could easily say both of the above have improved greatly through the recent year, still can be felt some kind of discontent, trying to remind me , that I have been pushing myself way below my limits. Human nature as it is, and in my case, far too deep reaching influence of perfectionism, differs my achievements greatly from expectations, set at the start of the journey, which are far more optimized and planned time much more productively spent. And unless you are well-trained planer, guided by down to earth realistic expectations, the feeling mentioned above will always be present, so probably the best solution for this would be to tame it, put more value on the work done, reward yourself for it in some way, and choose to strive for excellence rather than perfection (because it is unattainable, only time consuming) in the future.
And you should never look satisfaction as a matter of distant future, because if you don’t know how to find happiness in the moment, it won’t come just by itself in the future either. And that doesn’t mean, that you should resign all far reaching projects… Just try to live a life of as much joys as possible… including those, experienced at the completion of those big, long time period extending projects. They can be even much more satisfactory.

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